Really just don’t know how to feel. Like I feel like shit but I don’t know it I should feel that way. I don’t know why it’s do hard to walk away from her. She’s been telling and telling me to the point where I read her text saying “honestly I never want to see or speak to you again,” I read it over and over again and you would think that by now maybe I would have gotten the hint she’s trying to give me but I just can’t seem to believe it. She says I don’t take her seriously but it’s not that, I just don’t think she sincerely wants to leave as much as she says she does. I know shes tired of all this fighting and wants to go back to how things were at the beggining, and even though I think that may be possible 100%, I know we can get pretty damn close, as long as we still love each other and we both cooperate. If there was one person I had to choose to do everything thing with for the rest of my life she would be my choice way ahead of anyone I have met or could meet, I’m just very scared right now.