After I was let go by Wendy’s and ended spending most of my savings while I found another job, the money I had left I spent on her and then ended up getting into debt up until now. It’s not about the money I spent, it’s about the joy I got being able to give her whatever she wanted. She wanted this and I said fine babe well do that, and it’s not like i didn’t want to do it, whatever it was I actually did want to do it, primarily because I wanted to see her happy. Never in my life did I think I would end up doing yoga, but I did with her, and I loved every minute of that yoga session, looking to my right and seeing her and being there with her struggling to keep our balance. The whole experience was amazing, and it wasn’t just because of yoga, it was cuz it was with her. I wish all that mattered now, I wish she really did see how much I try for her and how much she means to me. I think all she thinks right now is he lied to me, he just wants to hurt me, all he does is lie. I just wish instead of that she would think, he always tried to please me, he always gave me whatever I wanted and not necessarily material wise, he was there when I wanted him, and not once did he ignore me. And even then she had already been saying I did not care and it wasn’t like before. Her saying she liked the flowers BUT really hurt, that BUT hurt bc it really came from the bottom of my heart. And if she was kidding she should have just said so and it would have been all perfect. I love her, I just don’t know how long ill be able to say I love my GIRLFRIEND, bc I don’t know when she’ll really just leave and not want to talk to me again. Shit upsets me :/