Everything i do just has a different meaning to you. What used to be cute to you isn’t cute anymore, my words are just words with empty emotions, words I say just to keep you around bc you say I’m “used to you” and not in love with you. The fact that I went crazy looking everywhere for a job for you, and asked everyone for you just meant one thing to you: that I wanted to shut you up every time you talked about wanting a job. I just lost meaning to you, you might as well have thrown the last flowers I got for you in my face the way you took them. I know my I love you’s mean nothing to you now. I know the effort I put into making you happy is not enough and in fact nothing compared to how “I was before”. I got old, and with every word I say to you, every hug I give you or everytime I kiss you, I know you just think to yourself, “it’s not the same anymore”. We’re not gonna last much longer. That really sucks bc I keep repeating to you that I love you with all my heart, I just have to remind myself those few words mean nothing to you now.